Visit to Gma E's

Yesterday we left bright and early to visit Gma E and hang w Uncle C and Jenna. The girls were running around her new place like crazy- guess they like an open floor plan. Hillers has been moody lately as a result of teething (accompanied w slight fever, diaper rash, diarrhea, crankiness) but after she had food in her belly, snapped out of it. Jack was so good at lunch. And as we were looking for the new place said encouraging things like "This is beautiful! I love it! Nice and big!" Haha

We let Jack stay up a bit later and eat pizza w us. She loves pizza so so much.

And today she wore green to school for St P's.

But today was freaking hard. For starters, yesterday my mom friend received a disturbing email by accident about an incident at Jackie's school (not involving Jack or her class in any way), but generally disturbing my peace of mind. So with a bit of anxiety, I dropped her off at school today forcing H to sit in the parking lot for 30 minutes at the start and end of the day.

Then it was effing cold. It is awkward getting dressed while pregnant. Anyone who tells you otherwise is full of crap OR is shaped like an egg all the time and it is no biggie. I am fine if I can wear a dress and flip flops. If I am piling on pants, shoes, shirt, coat- rest assured I am miserable. This is why I was hoping and aiming for a September due date and not July. I wouldn't be showing until like next week and spring is so soon. So I looked like hell today which is awesome. I had to wear a crew neck shirt which I cannot stand. I feel claustrophobic and gross- no offense to crew neck lovers across the world. Also, my yoga pants are too long for my sneakers.

Then I sliced my thumb and thumb nail on a knife. Jackie repeated my own words back to me, which made my night "mommy, you have to be careful with knives."

Then the second I picked up Jax from school it was obvious she was exhausted- she started sobbing about missing our old car. So after lunch I put everyone down for naps - and she cried and called out to me about our gray car for 1.5 hours straight. She did not sleep one second. I called Jim bc I felt like I was on Candid Camera or whatever it's called. I went in and said "That car is gone. I never liked it." And she looked at me and laughed, so she redeemed herself a bit. But on a bad day, her refusal to nap when I know she is exhausted is like nails on a chalkboard to my soul.

Then Hilly cried for 40 minutes before falling asleep tonight- and her diaper rash has only slightly improved. I went in and picked her up and she was fine so I knew I was being played. And that letting her cry it out was our only option. But the high point of this sitch was I got some QT w Jax - as her mother, if she is in a bad mood, she does not hold back. In fact, I think she puts herself into a bad mood intentionally for me sometimes. I know I do this for my mom too and have my entire life, so I totally get it. But when she wants to stay up later? Sweet as pie. I like to take advantage of those sweet moments. So we talked about Hilly and my thumb and whether I needed a pillow and her stuffed owls, etc...

Then I took a shower and ripped open the cut on my thumb while trying to fit a tank top over my awkward body.

I need all of my fingers in working order 100% of the time.

Oh, and I got a chemical burn on my face from a face mask. It is so hot.

Alright, I feel much better after venting. Congrats if you made it to the end of this post.

Oh cute Hilly thing- today Jackie was ordering me around like crazy and I always ask "What do you say?" and all day I would hear a little voice say "pees!" and it was Hilly. And Hilly did her shapes puzzle 100% correctly. And Jax is coming along awesome in her alphabet recognition. And also at night in their bedroom, they have good times which makes me happy.